[He remembers that. He was four, and he realized he would never be that. He would never be able to pull anything out of dreams. Ronan used to wake up with the most beautiful toys, cars that made noise and stuffed bears that walked and roared, and airplanes that flew on their own, but Matthew was the first person, Matthew was proof.
Declan realized how completely and totally normal he was.]
And mom loved you so much. No one ever thought you were strange, no one ever thought that about you.
[Declan is such a good liar, because while all of that is true, he manages to excise the bitterness that he was no one's favorite. That he was not fanciful or wondrous enough for their family. Not a dreamer or a dream. Just Declan. The conflict of being unmoored and unhomed at age 4 doesn't inch into his voice.
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Dad was so happy. He was so proud.
[He remembers that. He was four, and he realized he would never be that. He would never be able to pull anything out of dreams. Ronan used to wake up with the most beautiful toys, cars that made noise and stuffed bears that walked and roared, and airplanes that flew on their own, but Matthew was the first person, Matthew was proof.
Declan realized how completely and totally normal he was.]
And mom loved you so much. No one ever thought you were strange, no one ever thought that about you.
[Declan is such a good liar, because while all of that is true, he manages to excise the bitterness that he was no one's favorite. That he was not fanciful or wondrous enough for their family. Not a dreamer or a dream. Just Declan. The conflict of being unmoored and unhomed at age 4 doesn't inch into his voice.
This is about Matthew.]
We loved you. All right? Always.