[ But he doesn't press further, because it is enough, for now. It won't be enough forever. He's awake and there's a life stretching out in front of him again, and he doesn't care how old Declan is, but he cares that he doesn't know how old Declan is anymore. ]
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Older than you.
[He looks down a little. Isn't that enough, Matthew?]
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I know that.
[ But he doesn't press further, because it is enough, for now. It won't be enough forever. He's awake and there's a life stretching out in front of him again, and he doesn't care how old Declan is, but he cares that he doesn't know how old Declan is anymore. ]
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[He leans down a presses a kiss to the top of Matthew's head. Just like that.][ ]
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And then he eats his lunch. It's very like Matthew to be chatty while eating, always trying to talk through a mouthful of food, but now....
He doesn't know what to talk about. The world is different; he's not sure what fits where anymore. Where he fits anymore. ]